Have you ever felt like you were torn between two worlds? I mean this not to be dramatic (ok, just a little bit), but because I feel this way all. the. freaking. time.
Take the visually obvious: I’m Korean-American, and the balance of Korean and American are constantly fluctuating and probably more on the American side than my parents would like. At school, I was always told that I was “good at math and science” (and fulfilling my Asian stereotype), but I preferred my English and French classes because I liked them better. I still can’t find a reason why.
I like English, but I hate writing, but I desperately want to keep up this desolate thing I call a blog because I have ideas and thoughts and opinions I want to share with people, but I’d rather shout into the void of the internet rather than tell my own five friends and have them judge me for being someone other than who they thought I was.
Sorry. I’m being dramatic again.
Over the course of the last however many years I’ve “had” this blog, I’ve constantly been struggling with what I want to cover. Food, yes. Of course. But also, skincare and makeup have been creeping into my life and I’ve had nobody to really talk to about it. And I feel like you have to compartmentalize yourself as someone who only likes one thing, but I like Lots Of Things. Sometimes I have a short whirlwind obsession with something and then drop it like it’s hot (but to me, it’s not hot, it’s boring now). And other times I have an obsession that ebbs and flows but remains a constant (that’s food, by the way).
I have a feeling that I’ll regret some things I post here, because I just get struck with inspiration to write and I just do it, because otherwise, nothing would ever be posted on this thing.
Anyway. I just wanted to share some people behind videos and blog and such who have inspired me to keep (start?) writing and sharing.